Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Haven't been blogging alot. No time! and tumblr is private so.. yea.
Term is coming to an END.
END of year TWO sem one. omgosh. time is moving too quickly.. we are aging too quickly.. this is scary. I want to slow down!!! NOW!! slow slow slow.
I actually enjoy uni - the stressful work. cuz i think working life will be worse. much worser. tomorow there's this internship briefing which will be stressing me out very soon.
Anws.. wt's birthday was awesssommme!! <3 minus the awful hangover please.
OK this widget is stupid.. it keeps lengthening. need to download a smarter one. BYE FOR NOW.
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Sunday, September 05, 2010
Ask for more
“Lord, teach me what you want me to do, and I will live by your truth.” Psalm 86:11
"When kindness comes through grudgingly, we’ll remember God’s kindness to us and ask Him to make us more kind. When patience is scarce, we’ll thank Him for His and ask Him to make us more patient. When it’s hard to forgive, we won’t list all the times we’ve been given grief. Rather, we’ll list all the times we’ve been given grace and pray to become more forgiving."
Can I hear a loud AMEN ?????
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Monday, August 30, 2010
Every time you give a chance
I believe that chances are created to be given. I believe because I'm a receiver of His endless chances, His embrace.. until I am trying my hardest to not make mistakes. Once granted grace, will always be graceful. Once loved, will always love. Once forgiven, will always learn to forgive. Once given mercy and a second chance, will always do the same to others. I look at how God has made me a forgiving person. Because he is. How God has made me believed in Love, because He loves unconditionally. How can you still keep forgiveness from others, be stingy with love, and cruel without mercy, when you're ALWAYS being treated in the opposite way? You become so so grateful .. you yourself wish others knew of this gratitude.
God's signs are amazing.. Sometimes grey but sometimes so so sharp n in your face. A sign I've asked for about a year(or slightly less) now.. wondered why it never came. And it began to show its appearance. Denying them, I tried. But once it's ordained, you can't just fight. Everytime I manage to push them away or try to defy it, it comes back IN MY FACE. 'hey.. I told you not to think of it'.. literally. People ask me.. hey why not? don care la.. go ahead. Even entertaining that thought gives MORE signs of why I should not. It's kinda scary..But I see the facts why Big Daddy is explaining to me that it's a wrong move. I will accept it.. despite how many times I still indulge in that little bit of rebellion and my own 'willfulness'. Sorry Daddy. Knowing He knows best.. I shall not. I shall not. I will not.
One more sign I've been praying.. please come. at Your Great timing.
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Monday, August 23, 2010
School is back
Summer's out! Goodbye Life, see u in December.
Updates in short. What I did in August...
- National Day fireworks photo session was awesomely-beautiful. A human creation I adore.
- 4 Mods this sem, all in first window. Budget bidding and I don really like my tax prof =/
- Sophomores briefing is making me stressed. Gpa to push up=/
- I love Koi at 25% Sugar content
- Vivace was cool.. attended it as a sophomore-disguising-as-freshie but was good catching up with friends at their booths!
- XLB BUFFET WAS AWESOMMEELY-FULL-BUT-SATISFIED!!!
- Meet up with Jill was nice after a long long while
- Skypark MBS was breath-taking!
- Social night photoshoot + rehearsals + games try-outs!
- BILTB(brother-in-law-to-be) is coming back alr with my f21 goodies! woohoo.
- SISTER tried on bridal gowns!! PREETS!
- Butter
- Last wed for Supper
- Crazy exams
- Meetup with JC PEEPSS ytd!=)=) happz. monthly ritual.
- Salt, inception, sorcerer's apprentice, burger bench good!
- Met claire, f21 shopping much
Ok i think tt's all i can recall.
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Sunday, August 01, 2010
Mercy
Merciful, the merciful 3 seconds. The merciful lesson.
The mistake. The guilt. The regret. May His Blood take away all these. I pray.
The Father is good. Always. It was not time, so go and learn what all that was for. An expensive and painful day. But pain will fade and go away. The thought, the Grace is what stays.
30...days, A Fast from humanity. Heavens and its Creativity. 3 seconds to display human's Vulnerability. 7 ...deadly sins.
Heart stopped. Eyes fixed. Hands froze. Mind failed.
The panic.
The call.
The unwillingness to fall.
There were massive voices, screaming. Falling. Calling. Blocking.
Aftermath. Crumpled element, Broken. Scars.
Feeling is real. Reality to feel. Much to deal.
You don't have to run, although you want to hide. Depend not on your own, but what's strong. Walk ahead and watch your steps.
Burdened travellers. Painted gray. Lift those up. I pray.
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Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Hermoso de cambio
Been the slackest thing ever on this planet the past few days. At home, stoning, sleeping, mac-ing. Rot to the max. It actually feels like I've rot too much.
Meeting up with rach, cy, boon was nice on saturday. Nandos! finally tried it ever since it came. mega long queue but was entertained by the catching up. Chit chating was good.. jokes... us. Bugis was quite mad crowded on a weekend.. we left at 7 and I went to meet my folks to meet my sister's future-in-laws. Dinner was .....tensed at first! I think cuz we both hvnt actually sat down for a dinner properly, the Lins n the Johns at the same table. But well.. all was cool and the stiffness melt down to a natural harmony.
I think sometimes I want things when I can't get them.
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Thursday, July 15, 2010
Accendo'10!!
Back from asoc camp 2010! freshmen orientation subcomm saigang ends today. Sunday - Today, slept on SR floor n burnt under chili padi sun. And chili padi burying really works in clearing the weather!
Camp was generally fun, meeting new people, doing new things, as a senior. So much nostalgia, going through the same things in a different angle. From a freshmen participant in 2009 to a committee backstage crew involved in the organising.. it was a special transition. And I really got a 360degrees view of how a camp is like. And it was tiring as a freshmen, being enthu etc.. but equally or doubly tiring being backstage.
The glamour in front needed soooo much hardwork, man power behind. And it's smth you will never quite appreciate until you're put in the spot. I rmb last year, i barely knew who e org comm was, nor rmb any game masters and definitely not any subcomm. One of the hardest thing is putting in so much effort and not being recognised. And I guess God wants to teach me the lesson of humility as well. Also, that He sees what im going through and is telling me the same story in a differnt context. Like in ministry, or when you're simply doing things for Godly purpose, sometimes, you would also not receive a single credit at all.. and nobody knows who you are or what you did. They rmb whos infront, the fun, but not the planning. Like a stage performance, the dancers put in work too, but its the crew that gave their all. But what you would rmb more is the dance and not how the props r made or how the stage is laid. What's the only difference in ministry work is God sees it.. and He's the most important audience which actually matters.
It was sweating hardwork, no sleep, no rest, getting pissed off n complains from annoying freshies who only wants to cheat in games, packing logs, rushing here n there, uncooperative facis, irritating people, irritable mood, lousy food, long hours of blazing sun on burning skin. Experience, experience. All sums up to a good experience though.
All in all, the people are quite nice. Hopefully there'll be more chances of such experience!
I feel like we're losing something. Losing how we used to really just talk about anything and I really don like the arguments that can jus make things not nice for days. Mayb we should talk about how we can not argue anymore.. maybe I should just delete this whole thing n pretend I'm ok. maybe I shld not let my eyes turn sour as I type this. maybe I jus miss my bestfriend.
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